'. . . we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God . . .' -Isaiah 53:4
In learning of Peter Singer's most
recent round of unthinkable ways to treat other human beings I am
brought to reflect afresh on the writhing
rebellion of an impenitent heart, the black twistedness of sin. And my mind drifts back to my own heart.
After all, his wickedness is more a mirror than a window, since he and I come of the same human race. And I realize anew how domesticated sin is to me in terms of actual felt reality. Many days I hardly feel
it. It is largely theory, not reality. Both around me but also within me. I
can't feel my own sinfulness. Why? Because, as Lloyd-Jones said, of that very sinfulness. Like a disease one symptom of which is thinking you're okay. At times my sin deeply distresses me. But most of my life flows on oblivious to its quiet tentacles.
In reading Singer's argument, however, I am waked from the stupor of merely theoretical
belief in sin. I ponder what it will be like for Peter to stand before God if
he does not repent before he dies. Psalm 29 says that the voice of the Lord
splits trees in half. Trees. Morally neutral trees, which glorify God just in
being trees. Shattered at his very voice. Stricken. What will the voice of the Lord do to a wormy
rebel who advocates for the legal rape of the disabled? The image of the sword coming out of Christ's mouth in Revelation 1
to judge suddenly seems non-exaggerated.
Peter Singer's sin cries out for judgment not only as guilt, but as horror.
So does mine. Of course, it would be evil to say we are all as culpable as Peter Singer. But it would
also be evil to deny it.
On the one hand, each of us will give an account to the Lord. The Bible
teaches individual accountability (2 Cor. 5:10). I am responsible for myself,
not what Peter Singer has done.
But on the other hand the deep blackness of the human heart left to its own
devices is so desperately and universally intransigent toward beauty and
goodness and glory that the difference between the most upright sinner and the
most vile sinner is so slight that it must hardly register on heaven's scale.
What is a difference of a few inches on earth when viewed from outer space? As
Handley Moule put it in his Romans commentary, you may be in the deepest valley
and I on the highest mountain but we are equally unable to touch the stars. And
I am sobered back into the reality that I am far more like Peter Singer than I
am willing to believe. Which unwillingness is itself further indictment of this
But there is another salutary effect of reading Peter's rage-eliciting argument, beyond being reminded of who we all are. We taste, just for a moment, righteous, objective, indignation
with sin. In our own fallen and finite way, we see things from God's
perspective. Clarity comes. We feel a certain choking revulsion. We know wrath. Appropriate, measured, and
just, but wrath all the same. Healthy wrath is not arbitrary, malicious,
uncontrolled. True wrath simply insists on the right. On justice. On commensurate
repayment. The horror that he is bringing on other humans, we know should be
brought back on his own head. That's not a wrong response. Something is wrong with us if we don't feel horror and wrath toward such things.
And so we not only come out of our slumber with regard to ourselves. We also ponder Calvary afresh, where a choking revulsion erupted not from one human to another but within the very Trinity.
What happened at
the cross, for those of us who claim to be its beneficiaries?
It is beyond calculating comprehension, of course. A three-year-old can't comprehend the pain of his parents' divorce; it's beyond him. How much less could we comprehend what it meant for the Father to reject the Son and tear asunder a love so rich, so divine. But reflecting on what we
feel toward Peter Singer gives us a taste of what the Father felt toward the
Son. The righteous human wrath we feel is a drop in the ocean of righteous divine
wrath the Father unleashed.
After all, the Father did not punish Jesus for the sin of just one man but many. What must it
mean when Isaiah says of the servant that 'the Lord has laid on him the
iniquity of us all' (Isa 53:5)? What was it for Christ to swallow down the
cumulative sickness, twistedness, self-enthronement, of the elect? What must it
have been for the sum total of righteous divine wrath generated not just
by one man's sin but 'the iniquity of us all' to come sweeping over a single
It's speculation, but for myself I cannot believe it was physical extremity that
killed Christ. What is physical torture compared to the full weight of centuries of
cumulative wrath-absorption? That mountain of piled up horrors? How did Jesus even retain sanity psychologically in absorbing the sum total of, say, every lustful thought and deed coming from the hearts of God's people--and that is one sin among many? Perhaps it was sheer despair that broke him down into death. If he was sweating blood at the thought of God-abandonment, what was it like to go through with it? Would it not have been the withdrawal of the Father's love from his heart, not the withdrawal of oxygen from his lungs, that killed him? Who could hold up mental stability when drinking down what God's people's deserved? Richard
Bauckham notes that while Psalm 22:1 ('My God, my God, why have you forsaken me') was originally written in Hebrew, Jesus
spoke it in Aramaic and thus was personally appropriating it. Jesus wasn't
simply repeating David's experience of a thousand years earlier as a convenient parallel expression. Rather, every
anguished Psalm 22:1 cry across the millennia was being recapitulated and
fulfilled and deepened in Jesus. His was the true Psalm 22:1 of which ours are the shadows. As the people of God all our feelings of forsakenness funneled
through an actual single human heart in a single moment of anguished horror on Calvary, an actual forsakenness.
Who could possibly bear up beneath it?
Who would not cry out and shut down?
When communion with the Father had been one's oxygen, one's meat and
drink, from eternity past in the unceasing mutually flowing rivers of intra-Trinitarian delight and love? Who
could survive that? To lose that communion was to die. The great love at the heart of the universe was being rent in two and cast into darkness.
The sun set at the beginning of Jesus' ministry (Mark 1:32) and we are told eight times throughout Mark that evening is present, reminding us that the world's evening had come. Almost all of Mark 14 takes place under cover of darkness. Then a noontime darkness descended as Jesus hung on the cross (Mark 15:33), the darkest moment of all of human history, anticipated in the ancient prophecies (Amos 8:9-10). The world's Light was going out.
And in venting that righteous wrath the Father was not smiting a morally neutral
tree. He was splintering the Lovely One. Beauty and Goodness Himself was being
uglified and vilified. 'Stricken, smitten by God . . .'
So that we ugly ones could be freely beautified, pardoned, calmed. Our heaven through his hell. Our entrance into Love through his loss of it.
What must it have been like?
What must he have felt?
In my place?